Wednesday, October 2, 2013


Thats how I feel today. I woke up this morning because I could not sleep and went on line to check FB. I then saw a post from a friend from Atlanta that took me by surprise. He said he and his brand new boyfriend of 6 months were going on a trip to Disneyland in a few weeks. Wait... was that not the same trip he told me he had to cancel because of his new job? He had no vacation time to take off so he could not go? Now suddenly he is going with his new friend? He lied to me... to us. We were supposed to go on that trip. We planned that trip a year ago when he was still with his first husband. He was visiting us last christmas and we had a great time. Then a few months after that visit,he broke up with that current husband but we still planned to go with him for our honeymoon. Then he got a new boyfriend... he changed. He was moving way too fast for my taste. Only after a few months, his new friend moved in... now they are 'engaged'... wow... that was fast. But only a few months ago he got a new job and he told us that because he started later in the year, he had no PTO build up yet so he was not going to be able to go to Disneyland. We cancelled our plans too and decided to go another time. But then today when he posted that he was going on that trip... that he never cancelled... I felt deceived. I saw a bunch of comments below his post and actually wrote some of my own... but then got rid of them. I did not want to be upset with him on his page but I did leave a snarky comment of some type. I then sent him a private message telling him how I truly felt. I am sure by the end of today, he will unfriend me. I am fine with that. I would not be able to trust him any more anyway. I care for him and hope this boyfriend does not hurt him. He is young and will not listen to reason. Those 20 plus years of experience I have on him means nothing to him. He is in love and we all know love is blind. I hate days like this.

Saturday, September 21, 2013

3 years later...

So, I totally forgot about blogging. Facebook has taken over my life. I am not even sure if anyone reads blogs anymore... but I have found it is a great place for me to share my feelings and express myself. Sort of like a diary but just public. I can't be as open as I would like in a diary (who knows who will actually read this thing!) but it's a great place to let loose. I found my site again because of my friend Keith. He has a blog on here called Dorked Out and he loves to express himself I suggest you find him and follow him. He is super smart and cute to boot. Life these past few years has been interesting. I still work for IKEA and have enjoyed most of my time there. My hubby and I are still together after almost 12 years and we got legally married back in 2012. Hubby (Joe) did have a bad bout of depression. Thats something I have never had to deal with in my life before. It's not like a broken arm where you can fix it and it gets better. I can't see anything physical that I can fix! Joe was so ill he was out of work for 5 months at the start of the year. We are still recovering from that financial blow... but things are better and he is back to work. That's all for now. I will continue to write and see who will follow...

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Insanity rules my head

Tuesday was a really bad day for me. I kind of lost it at work... I am upset with a co worker and I am allowing it to get to me. Normally I have learned to let stupid people not bother me but due to some other reasons I have this time. Then to top it off, I made a good friend of mine cry because I said something that I did not think would bother them... But it did.
I ended up going home to take some medication and try to get my head on straight. I am better today. I took a real "mental health day" today and was able to calm down. I know it will take me a week or so to feel better about all this but at least I got a lot off my chest thus week. I dread Thursday since I might have to confront this person about all this... I used to call this person friend but now see that they have done nothing but try to undermine our team to get ahead. I don't have time any more for people like this. I am too old to deal with this high school crap. I just want to go and do my job in a professional manner with professtional people... But there is always someone who has to cause trouble.

So for this week, insanity rules my head.

Posted via email from ctocity's posterous

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Mothers day and catching up

Happy Mothers Day to all the moms out there! My mom is no longer with me but I know she is out there keeping an eye on me!

Its been a while since posting. I have been busy with the new IKEA Tampa opening and was away for over 3 weeks. Plus, these days I really do all my writing on Twitter and facebook. I have gotten tired of blogging and actually find this to be a slow way to keep in contact with everyone. I have to say that facebook has connected me to people I have not talked to in years! I find it facinating that we have all connected this way.

I have been in a stranger mood than normal these past few weeks. Not sure if it is the full moon... my emotions are all over the place. Maybe I am just getting crankier with old age!

Anyway... thats all for now... follow me on facebook and twitter... my name there is the same as here... ctocity.

later... C

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Twitter... are they really following me?

A few weeks ago, my hubby needed to get a new phone. His old Razor was falling apart and every time I would try to talk to him all I could hear was static or a choppy signal. It was time to replace things. Since it is tax time and we did get a bit of money back from Washington, he decided to upgrade to an iPhone. He has been wanting one since they came out (so have I) and since the account is in my name, we both needed to go down to the AT&T store to upgrade the account. For the first week, hubby did not come up for air... no matter where we were, he was playing with the phone. That is fine with me... He has been so patient waiting to get one and like me, we love gadgets... and this is the ultimate gadget for nerds like us.

A few weeks later when my tax check arrived, I decided to also upgrade my phone to the iPhone. I can say that I truly love the phone and that I have all my gadgets wrapped up in one... phone, iPod, computer... in one easy device. Yes... there are down sides of the device like never knowing when you will find a 3G signal... the OS does not do Flash on web sites... No MMS service (soon to be fixed this summer!) but all in all, an amazing device. I am also part of the facebook world and enjoy keeping up with the lives of my friends both old and new. I truly feel facebook has connected me to people I have lost over the years... this including my family members.

Now we have something called Twitter. I have had an account for a while now but never really used it. Then I installed it on my phone. Now I follow about 20 people/things and have about 20 people following me. Strange... I find it weird that people want to know what I am doing all the time... and even weirder... that I am actually typing in what i am doing during the day to let them know all this! Are we all becoming mini 'superstars'? Our own little fan clubs? I now get so much information pushed at me all day long. Almost too much... One day, a friend I follow who has a pod cast sent out over 60 tweets that day. My phone was almost dead by 3 p.m. in the afternoon. I am not sure I want to be that connected to the world. Are we all becoming superficial?

I will have to play with Twitter a bit more to see if I like it. Maybe its just a fad... but I did add it to my blog below... just in case you need to know what I am doing each moment of the day.