Deceived

Thats how I feel today. I woke up this morning because I could not sleep and went on line to check FB. I then saw a post from a friend from Atlanta that took me by surprise. He said he and his brand new boyfriend of 6 months were going on a trip to Disneyland in a few weeks. Wait... was that not the same trip he told me he had to cancel because of his new job? He had no vacation time to take off so he could not go? Now suddenly he is going with his new friend? He lied to me... to us. We were supposed to go on that trip. We planned that trip a year ago when he was still with his first husband. He was visiting us last christmas and we had a great time. Then a few months after that visit,he broke up with that current husband but we still planned to go with him for our honeymoon. Then he got a new boyfriend... he changed. He was moving way too fast for my taste. Only after a few months, his new friend moved in... now they are 'engaged'... wow... that was fast. But only a few months ago he got a new job and he told us that because he started later in the year, he had no PTO build up yet so he was not going to be able to go to Disneyland. We cancelled our plans too and decided to go another time. But then today when he posted that he was going on that trip... that he never cancelled... I felt deceived. I saw a bunch of comments below his post and actually wrote some of my own... but then got rid of them. I did not want to be upset with him on his page but I did leave a snarky comment of some type. I then sent him a private message telling him how I truly felt. I am sure by the end of today, he will unfriend me. I am fine with that. I would not be able to trust him any more anyway. I care for him and hope this boyfriend does not hurt him. He is young and will not listen to reason. Those 20 plus years of experience I have on him means nothing to him. He is in love and we all know love is blind. I hate days like this.

3 years later...

So, I totally forgot about blogging. Facebook has taken over my life. I am not even sure if anyone reads blogs anymore... but I have found it is a great place for me to share my feelings and express myself. Sort of like a diary but just public. I can't be as open as I would like in a diary (who knows who will actually read this thing!) but it's a great place to let loose. I found my site again because of my friend Keith. He has a blog on here called Dorked Out and he loves to express himself I suggest you find him and follow him. He is super smart and cute to boot. Life these past few years has been interesting. I still work for IKEA and have enjoyed most of my time there. My hubby and I are still together after almost 12 years and we got legally married back in 2012. Hubby (Joe) did have a bad bout of depression. Thats something I have never had to deal with in my life before. It's not like a broken arm where you can fix it and it gets better. I can't see anything physical that I can fix! Joe was so ill he was out of work for 5 months at the start of the year. We are still recovering from that financial blow... but things are better and he is back to work. That's all for now. I will continue to write and see who will follow...